Someone I loved dearly died...How do I go on without him?

My husband died unexpectedly at a young age very recently... I love him very much. It's still hard for me to talk of him using past tense. At this point I can't even imagine how I will go on with my life. He wasn't just my husband, he was the most amazing person on Earth. He was so loving, caring and cheerful. He taught me to love and laugh like I never loved or laughed before. We shared true love and I cannot imagine my life without him in it. But sometimes I think I would give up us being together just so that he would have been alive! I am so lost and confused. I don't know what to do... Life goes on... but I don't see any sense in it.